My Trauma

I was 13 years old when this man raped me and took my virginity. He would come in every night after taking his wife to work and he would do bad things. One day I broke down in the house screaming and sliding down the wall and no one thought anything of it except him. He knew why I was breaking down and he didn't care. I never went after him and I should have because I forever have to live with what happened to me and never have that closure. I came face to face with him recently when I was on vacation and I had a panic attack just being face to face with him again it brought back all what he had done. I wish to one day be able to confront him and get some closure but even then I will always have to live with it and everything that comes with like panic attacks when it randomly pops into my mind.

-Amanda